A Kitsune's Tails

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 16:26:37 GMT

I want Gankustuou in French!

That is all.

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 16:48:09 GMT

So I'm really confused about life at this point.

I'm struggling with my mentality and my sense of self I think. I'm beyond confused about what I want, what I need, and what I've got in life right now. It just doesn't make sense. I don't know what to do about it either...or what's actualyy the matter with me.

Like I know I have social issues and problems along that line, which is my general problem and apprehension about parties, clubs, and conventions. I know I have lots of self concisous issues, which is my general apprehension to being around lots of people and wearing clothing that is form fitting. I know I have control issues, which is why I generally think before getting involved in anything at all.

So I don't know which is hitting me.

I'm not stressed.

I'm rather in control of what all is happening.

Not much has thrown me for a loop recently.

So then what the fuck is happening to me?

I haven't been able to write in nearly three months. I don't eat regularly: not hungry. I either sleep very little or wayyy too much, no middle ground. I'm either very perky or exceedingly morose, no middle ground. I've very despondant it seems. I'm also rather easily set off these days. I don't know whats going on.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

No number 1

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 05:52:14 GMT

What if the concept of "the one" is total shite?

Why do I say this?

I don't think I'm ever going to find someone that I could care about that will care about me back. I'm going straight through college...to grad school...to get my phd...then to go into professorship...

not much time for the fantastical world of romance...

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 08:00:47 GMT

I'm sick....

And yet I'm up positn stuffs at 4 am.....

Yay....

If I don't post here much...its because i have facebook.

WOOO facebook...

Ok...im done

An Apology to the world

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 15:11:17 GMT

It would appear I have been a bit of a hypocrit lately.

I apologize for my childishness and juvenile behavor lately.

It was stupid...

And it is over.

End of discussion.

And so it comes to pass

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 20:14:27 GMT

A weekend alone comes to an end. And what did I learn?

People have a sneaking nack to not tell you the truth or tell you only what they think you want to hear.

What did I learn: To generally take everyhing people tell me with a grain of salt, as well as everyhing they don't say. I think the desire not to hurt people is paramont, yet, without fail, the not telling or partial telling ends up being the bigger problem. The damage in perception, trust, and percieved character of the person. Such actions became a rather scary mark on my friends character sheets.

Conclusion: Human desire to maintain good relations with people leads them to damage the link even further.

Late nights make for an more theatric Jay.

What did I learn: As the night moves on, not only do my creative impulses increase, but my amiability does as well. I get along with people better, and I become much more social. I hardly feel that nagging fear that I get in social situations. I also find that I can associate and relax much better with strangers.

Conclusion: I should deal with late night crowds when I need social interaction.

This weekend really has been a bust as far as I'm concerned. No interaction in the way that I wanted. Hardly much writing got done. And I didn't see some of the people I wanted to.

Well fuck.

But I did have a great conversation with some of my friends at 4 a.m., had fun with college friends over in PTC, and had a wonderful shopping excersion.

Oh...and my experiment still is right.

Meme-ish

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 20:22:35 GMT

1. Comment and I'll tell you what fandom, if any, I associate with you.
2. I'll tell you what icon I see on my friends list and know it's you.
3. I'll say which song, if any, reminds me of you
4. I'll even throw one memory in too
5. Post this in your own journal so I can see what you associate with me.

Yeahhh...whatever

I'm goin...I'm goin....

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:18:18 GMT

So...I was told to change my livejournal after that last entry...

But I'm confused as to what I should say.

I mean...I'm not sleeping well, not eating much, lethargic, not writing, mentally exausted, physically drained. This is odd. I eat little...but its food that's good for me. I swim and bike each day. I drink plenty of water. I sleep long...and wake up tired.

THIS SUCKS~! I don't really know what the hell to do...

Plus I'm horny as sin....

FUCK.

Maybe that's what I need to do....

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 04:04:39 GMT

So I've decided to say fuck it to the world.

I probably wont be around for a while...

Meh

ya'll will be better off

Sooo...I rock at english!

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 00:49:46 GMT

Today...I recieved, like the thousands of other Advanced Placement students, my AP scores letter.

The tally is thus:

AP Stats: 3
Ap American History: 4
Ap European History: 4
AP English Language: 5
Ap English Literature: 5

SEE!? I fsking PWN at english! =^_^=
What the hell does Lovett know!? THIS ROCKS SO MUCH!!

ON another note, I had a meeting with a Marine recruiter today. Don't ask me why, but I did. And nothing going to actually come of it. But it was interesting to hear their sales pitch. It also made me realize that it isn't as psycho intense as I would have thought.

I'm still a civil servent though. Teachers all the way!

New name, new beginnings.

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 21:48:42 GMT

I don't check my LJ very often. This group is totally for people that I give a damn about. If I wanna keep in touch with what you say, then you'll be a friend.

Think you're worthy?